Little sweet guy

Assalamualaikum wbt

Nice to write again. I have a lot of thing that i kept in my heart that I need to let them out now. It is suffocating.I can breath no more.

I never mention about the guy who make me stand again, who bring me out from dark period of mine. The guy who make me stay in medical field up to this level . I never mention about him and i will write about him now.

This guy is just a simple descent gut who will say out everything he want to. He got a big mouth, eat so fast.  I can never finish my plate quicker than him. Everything about him is just about food. He loves cakes,pastries and woman who can bake and cook and definitely its not gonna be me.

He loves to talk about his crush and yet i really dont understand, did he need to? He loves good woman with good iman and again definitely its not gonna be me.

Whatever it is , I do respect him because he never cheat to me. I dont care how much he hurt me, he loves other girls or whatever it is, I just enjoy my time  to be with him.

Oh guys, sorry I have to back to my hostel now. later ill continue writing

dia merajuk

sumpah !
aku jumpe dia dalam lenaku.
aku jumpa dia dalam jagaku.

tapi hari ini dia merajuk denganku.
satu kataku, satulah katanya.
janganlah begitu.
rungsing aku.

hai si awak,
esok tersenyumlah seperti selalu.
kerana aku juga ingin senyum melihatmu :)

Suara

Assalamualaikum wbt.

Suara aku.
Jarang jarang.
Malas. Penat. Lelah.

Hati aku.
Selalu.
Gembira.Ketawa.Menyanyi.

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Let me sing yu a song huh  ;)

Haram-haramkah aku
Bila hatiku jatuh cinta
Tuhan pegangi hatiku
Biar aku tak jadi melanggar
Aku cinta pada dirinya
Cinta pada pandang pertama
Sifat manusia ada padaku
Aku bukan Tuhan

*
Haram-haramkah aku
Bila aku terus menantinya
Biar waktu berakhir
Bumi dan langit berantakan

**
Aku tetap ingin dirinya
Tak mungkin aku berdusta
Hanya Tuhan yang bisa jadikan
Yang tak mungkin menjadi mungkin

Reff:
Aku hanya ingin cinta yang halal
Di mata dunia juga akhirat
Biar aku sepi aku hampa aku basi
Tuhan sayang aku
Aku hanya ingin cinta yang halal
Dengan dia tentu atas ijinNya
Ketika cinta bertasbih
Tuhan beri aku cinta
Ku menanti cinta…

Appreciating little things in life

Alhamdulillah. I already have my OnG log book in my hand. I dont really believed that I have already passed up to this stage. So many times I did want to give up as a housemen. But how can I. This is the only place I can share my tender and care. This is the only place where I feel so proud to be myself. The only place where I feel so needed and appreciated. The only place where I can prove that whenever I down, I can always be up again. 5 days to go for OnG. Mean while let me do some throw back.

Surgical's memories...

This is what we do to fill up our surgical log book. Post call, weekend off, bd free shift, all spent in OT. I dont really sure wheteher we do really observe the surgery, what I can sure is everyone is trying out to proove that we were there so that we can get the signature after that. Wohoo, see how much we put effort to fill up our surgical log book.

This is the first SPC that I observed. Four month I wait,  finally I got the chance. Idont really eager to see the procedure. As mentioned, just for the log book meh. Ahaksz.

 Huhu.. This is us in MPO. No one ever care if you sleep in the room.Ahaksz

This is one of our moment together. We eat we enjoy.

Night guys.I need tonsleep now and I have six urology patient to be reviewed coming morning. Uhuks.

Dunia Baru

Assalamualaikum wbt.

Aku
Ditanya tentang aku yang dulu.
Sepi. Tiada temukan.

Hello.
Tiada jawapan.

Dicari cari.
Hilang. Tiada bayang.
Jauh meninggalkan agaknya.
Setelah ditinggalkan.

This is my surgical buddies. We spent most of  our time together during my 4 month surgical posting. Alhamdulillah today Nua and me already passed our Viva (final assesment). The question that been asked to me were parkland formula, content of hartman saline, local anesthesia and CVP insertion. Alhamdulillah. Again, thanks to my parents for their prayer. 

Duniaku yang baru.
Penuh dengan teman teman yang baru.
Jujur. Setia. Menggembirakan aku.
Sekurang kurangnya,
Terima kasih tuhan kerana aku masih aku
walau dalam dunia yang baru.

Writing Back

Assalamualaikum w.b.t

My brain is dying and my hand is getting stiff.
I need to write and I need to voice out all what my heart wanted to say.
Its been months I shut myself out from this writing things.

Alhamdulillah I am now a housemen.
Housemen what?
A doctor trainee. A trainee in HTAA

Excuse me to talk about my life now? Can I?
Ah who care. This is my diary anyway.

I get myself a new laptop. A mini Acer model. So compact and convinient and cute as well. Me love it much. Oh now I feel so good having a good monthly pay. Although, it cannot buy me happiness, but it can buy me all those good things  that I ever wish before. So guys,study hard and make money and enjoy life more ^^.

Talking about my life recently,
Im devoted to my work now.
Im enjoying my second posting in surgery.
Errr..let me have another session for it because I have a lot to talk about it.
My devotion. My crush. My tears.  The adorable guy in my posting. Story about my scariest HOD.
There are too much things that I wish I can tell you now.
But gosh, I need to sleep now. My eyes are killing me seriously.

Can I can I. Let me crawl inside my blanket now. Nite all.